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Batch #3: Healthier Vegan Cinnamon Rolls

If I told you that these rustic little things were made of half wholemeal flour and zero refined sugar, you might not expect much from them. I wasn’t sure what to expect either, until a divine smell wafted through my little apartment and I scurried to find it’s source: my oven. Or more specifically, the healthy, plant-based cinnamon rolls baking in my oven.

I’ve been on a heavily cinnamon infused adventure the past few days, making a new (albeit small) batch of cinnamon rolls as soon as I discover that the one I’ve just baked and tasted are not quite good enough. While all of my rolls have been significantly healthier than the average one you’ll find in a bakery (don’t even get me started on Cinnabon…), I was still consuming a fair bit more all-purpose flour, coconut oil, and syrup than I did on a typical day before cinnamon rolls took over the reigns to my life. Cue whole wheat, banana-sweetened, still-uber-tasty cinnamon rolls.

I stuffed these rolls with cinnamon banana puree and a little dash of rice malt syrup. I also tossed in some chopped walnuts and raisins at the last minute, both of which added a significant amount of flavor to the finished roll. The walnuts offered a crunchy variation from the gooeyness and provided such a wild, walnuty (?) flavor despite being being so scarce in the filling. Next time I’ll probably toss in another small handful. While I wish I had allowed the raisins to soak overnight in water or liquor to plump up to their juicy potential, they still added a little something. Mine had an almost tangy, tart flavor, which married well with the sweeter filling. The fruity filling may deter you, but one look at these oozing rolls should put you in the right direction. Like I said earlier, I was specifically out to create a healthy cinnamon roll that truly belonged at the breakfast table. If you aren’t after that sorta thing, no problemo. I’m the kind of person that will make decadent (relatively speaking, of course) cinnamon rolls three days in a row, only to insist, ‘healthy cinnamon rolls or NO rolls,’ by the fourth day. One can only eat so much of a good thing before never wanting to taste it again.

Think of these healthy buns as an ode to the O.G., white flour and all, cinnamon bun. Without the chance to stop and refuel with truly heart and tummy healthy ingredients, I may have had to cut the cinnamon bun project short all together. I’ll get back on track with my slightly less healthy roll making in a few days. But first, fruit and fiber, please. And a little bit of golden fat.

Makes 6-8 smaller rolls or 4 large rolls

1/2 cup whole wheat pastry flour (sub with regular ww, but know that the rolls may turn out a bit more dense)
1/2 cup all-purpose flour
1/2 tsp instant dry yeast
1/3 cup & 2 tsps unsweetened soy milk or other dairy free milk
1 1/2 tbsps vegan butter/margarine
1/2 tsp rice malt syrup or maple syrup
Large pinch of cinnamon (optional)
Small pinches of nutmeg and ground ginger (optional)

1/2 large ripe banana (or about 1 small), mashed into a puree
1 tbsp rice malt/maple syrup (add up to 1 tbsp more for a sweeter filling)
1 tbsp vegan butter
1/2 heaped tsp cinnamon
2-3 tbsps raisins
1/4 cup chopped walnuts

Vanilla Yogurt Drizzle:
1/3 cup smooth yogurt (unsweetened coconut or soy)
2-4 tsps rice malt/maple syrup (add to taste)
Scant 1/2 tsp vanilla extract
Drop or two of fresh lemon juice (optional)


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Sticky Vegan Cinnamon Buns: Round Two

I will not stand for next to ordinary cinnamon rolls if I don’t have to, so, after tolerating (okay, enjoying) the first batch of trial and error rolls yesterday with Matt, I took it upon myself to scout out ALL of the information I could about cinnamon rolls; what NOT to do when making cinnamon rolls; how to make the biggest, fattest, fluffiest cinnamon roll; instant dry yeast vs. active dry yeast; lean vs. rich dough in sweet buns; how the hell to cut cinnamon roll dough without making a squishy mess.

Learning from other people allows you to bypass a LOT of possible mistakes before even getting started (that’s more or less a piece of advice I came across ages ago on a baking forum and it couldn’t have rung louder in my ears today). I spent well over an hour on The Fresh Loaf, a website for “Amateur Bakers and Artisan Baker Enthusiasts,” scouring the forums for yeast-related questions and feedback. It turns out there are many smart people on the internet who like to make and eat bread. I don’t get a chance to interact with many bakers in daily, walking life, so it was extra enthralling reading first-hand troubleshooting stories. It’s also super helpful when I come across a line or two of wise words,

Looking for a “right” or “wrong” outcome when considering different varieties of yeast kind of misses the central point: they all ferment your dough and cause it to rise… Rather than asking “Am I using the right yeast?”, ask “What do I want to achieve with this bread?”‘

‘Pmccool’ asking the important questions that I should have posed way before I began dumping ingredients into a bowl. Doing the research takes lots of time and sometimes it makes me feel like I’m being swallowed, me and my whole head and heart. But I don’t. And later, when writing about those moments in the belly of the beast, I recall them with heavily rose-tinted glasses.

Since getting serious and down to business about making top notch cinnamon rolls, I’ve felt a wave of confidence cascade over me. I’ve definitely been humbled by yesterday and now, today’s cinnamon roll experiences, re-re-re-learning the simple fact that good/glorious things take time but that that’s no excuse not to educate yourself and be prepared before starting the clock. As a disclaimer, I thought I should state that despite all of the words I may string together about yeast, working with it is very straightforward. If you’re following a recipe to the T, you’re probably going to get twice-puffed dough and picture-perfect rolls on the first go (although there is no harm in knowing why you are doing what you’re doing!) However, because I decided, yet again, to alter and add ingredients to fit my preferences, things got messier and more complicated and a lot more tiny-number-math was involved.

I went into round 2 of cinnamon bun making with a lot more knowledge to fall back on; I had combed the internet for hours and already tested one specific way of going about it, so I knew a good deal of what NOT to do. Now was the tricky part of feeling my way around for what to do. The dough I began with was immensely better than yesterday’s; it was soft and pliable, without completely coating my fingers. Nonetheless, I couldn’t help but feel like it should have been stickier. Maybe the internet is doing me a bit of bad in addition to all of the good, providing me with an endless slideshow of cinnamon roll pictures and techniques to compare to mine. It’s something to keep in mind. Anyway, I was pleased with the dough and carried on kneading, only this time I kneaded for 4 minutes rather than 9. Again, the dough appeared to be in a much softer state than dough #1.

I cut back on the duration of the first rise from 1 hour and 5 minutes to 50 minutes as the dough definitely appeared doubled in volume. Most all recipes using instant or active dry yeast call for a first rise of 1-1 1/2 hours OR until the dough has doubled in size, but the Serious Eats recipe I chose to piggy back off of last time mentioned 1 1/2-2 hours despite using active dry yeast. More research has led me to believe that the wonky appearance of my first rolls was due to over rising. The yeast in dough feeds on sugar, releasing carbon dioxide and alcohol in the process. This explains the little air bubble that I mentioned seeing in my dough as I kneaded it last time. I may have still been over kneading, but bubbles are not NOT normal. What’s not right is when the dough is given too long to sit; the yeast will continue to do it’s job, bubbling and bubbling, ultimately creating more bubbles than the structure of the dough can properly hold, so the gluten will fail and you’ll end up with melted cinnamon rolls. With that in mind, I managed to gather up enough tenacity to listen to my gut, and reduced the second rise from 50 minutes to closer to 35 minutes.

Because I started making the dough too late in the day, I decided I ought to let it have a fridge hibernation before the quicker second rise in the morning. However, I learned online that long rises in the fridge are only recommended for dough with dry yeast. Instant and active yeast work at expanding dough far more rapidly, and thus, would deteriorate the structure of the dough rather than enhance it’s flavor. Before settling on that reality, I came across a number of forums where people mentioned that, as a disclaimer, it wasn’t ideal to replace dry yeast with instant/active, but you could technically reduce the amount of called-for regular yeast by 20% so that the quicker yeast doesn’t work as fast as usual. I jumped on the opportunity to try something different and set the covered cinnamon rolls in the fridge after shaping and cutting them.

It’s not recommended that the rolls stay in the fridge for more than 8-12 hours, so I was up at 4:00 AM the next morning to give them a warmer, second rise. I allowed them to sit in a partially pre-heated and switched off oven for close to 30 minutes. Like an overly anxious mother, I checked on the rolls at ten minute intervals to see how they were doing. It turns out instant yeast really should stay away from the fridge. I’m sure other people have been successful at it, but my rolls were even less enlarged than the ones yesterday. They held their shape MUCH better, which is a plus worth noting, but they still fell short. The dough was more cakey and dense than airy and fluffy, but in all fairness, the rolls still tasted very, very, nice.

The sweet potato filling from batch #1 didn’t wow me enough, so I gathered together my pretty new jars of nutmeg and ground ginger and went to pumpkin spice town. Pureed pumpkin and pumpkin spice make for the easiest top-notch filling. I’ve used the combo for everything from pie to scones to pancakes, so it was only about time I stuffed it into sweet rolls. As always, I opted for rice malt syrup rather than white or brown sugar to sweeten the filling. If I had maple syrup on hand I likely would’ve used that instead. I also decided to drop the walnuts and gooey sauce on top of the rolls as they baked rather on the bottom, as some of the sauce decided to burn and glue to the pan last time. These rolls may have hit the spot flavor-wise, but they didn’t quite fill up my fat and fluffy cinnamon roll void any more than the first batch did. In other words, I still have a lot of work to do!!!


118 g all purpose flour & 6.25 g bread flour
2.4 g dry instant yeast (about 1/2 very heaped tsp)
1/4 cup & 2 tbsps soy milk (room temperature)
1 1/2 tbsps coconut oil, melted
1/4 tsp rice malt syrup
Pinch of salt

1/3 cup pumpkin puree
1 1/2 tbsps rice malt syrup
1/2 tbsp coconut oil, melted
1 heaped tsp cinnamon
1/4 tsp nutmeg
1/4 tsp ground ginger

1 1/2-2 tbsps rice malt syrup
1/2 tbsp coconut oil
1/4 tsp cornstarch
Large pinch of cinnamon
1/3 cup chopped walnuts

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Vegan Cinnamon Rolls Turned Sticky Buns

I decided to make cinnamon rolls yesterday, not knowing what I was getting myself into. Following a recipe to a T is one thing; you know the ingredients and steps are pretty much foolproof and the people raving in the comments about how successful they were will make it sound all the more promising. For some reason, I don’t enjoy baking according to a recipe. If I can’t stop thinking about a recipe I’ve come across (i.e. it’s drool-inducing accompanying photos), I’ll follow the instructions and make it, but the former happens more often with savory dishes. Over the past 6-9 months of fairly frequent baking, I’ve found that I have the most fun when my creativity and curiosity are directing me. I know, I know, you can shake your head and wag your finger all you want. More often than not, my kitchen shuffling culminates in something sweet smelling and tasty. The Internet offers me an immense library of information about every niche and idiosyncrasy I could ever come across in baking, so it’s no wonder I can learn to do crazy things like make bagels. And when my so-called self-choreographed kitchen moves don’t come together according to plan? Well, I usually don’t plaster the photographs on the internet. This time around, however, I thought I ought to.

I’ve encountered more problems than usual on this baking expedition. Cinnamon rolls can be very finicky things; they contain yeast, a highly sensitive little fella, and require rolling, cutting, and shaping, three actions that increase in difficulty the softer, and ultimately better (depending on preference, of course), one’s dough is. My attempt to make cinnamon rolls that were entirely plant based and truly suitable for breakfast resulted in rolls quite unlike the normal thing. Something tells me I will have to make a few stops on the way to truly glorious vegan cinnamon rolls, so this will probably be the first batch of at least four or five. In fact, it’s probably bad luck to estimate that low a number of trial and error batches. In a day or two I hope to have something a little more desirable looking in front of the camera, but for now, look on for photos of some messed up looking naked cinnamon rolls and a big collection of words about the whole shabang (in an effort to save face, I turned these rolls into sticky buns right before popping them into the oven).

Most cinnamon roll recipes on the internet call for a little over 4 cups of flour, making about 12 medium-large cinnamon rolls. I decided to divide the former standard by four and aim to make 2-3 large rolls. I referred to a Serious Eats (SE for short) classic cinnamon roll recipe when deciding where to begin with my ratio of dry to wet ingredients and most frightening of all, what fraction of a tsp of yeast to use. For the 4 1/4 cups all purpose flour used, SE called for 1 packet or 2 1/4 tsps or 8.75 grams of active dry yeast.

I used exactly 1 cup & 1 tbsp or 147.94 grams of flour (flour for dough + flour from Tang Zhong method, what the heck?!, I know, I know, I’ll get to that later) and 1/2 tsp or 1.75 g of instant dry yeast. Exactly one fourth the amount of yeast from the SE recipe would have been 2.18 g, so I accidentally under added the yeast by .43 g. I am being very precise with the numbers and there’s always going to be a little room for error when using a cheap kitchen scale to measure such tiny amounts, but .43 grams of yeast could have very well made a heck of a lot of difference. How much of a difference it made I may never know, as tens and tens of google searches didn’t uncover a specific answer. Nonetheless, my instinct is that it contributed to the sub-par finished roll. Given that I’m only supposed to work with 2 g of yeast per batch of rolls, .4, which is nearly ONE QUARTER of all that was required, would have been a game changer. Had I accidentally forgotten to add 1/4th the amount of flour or milk to the dough, the entire outcome would have been off big time. So, lesson learnt: dry yeast granules may be tiny, but they are very, very mighty.

The dough rose for an hour and five minutes the first rise and nearly 50 minutes the second rise, yet I had a nagging suspicion that I should have left it to rise longer the first time. I knew the importance of letting dough puff up to it’s potential during the first rise, as it won’t inflate nearly as much the second time around, but I was wavering for too long between to wait and not to wait and eventually got flustered, threw my hands in the air, and said what the hell with it, I’m rolling it out.

From the pictures, the second ball does in fact look twice the size (if not larger??). Turns out my nagging suspicions can be wrong and empirical evidence (which I gathered yet didn’t properly examine at the time?) cannot. You’d think the former photos would eliminate under-risen-dough as the culprit, but after going through the SE recipe again, I’m not so sure. Their recipe, like mine, calls for instant/active dry yeast (the 2 kinds can be used interchangeably, the only catch is that instant can be mixed directly into flour while active has to be ‘activated’ in slightly warmed-lukewarm water) and yet, they instruct a 2-2 1/2 hour first rise and a 1-1 1/2 hour second rise! I thought the very point in using instant/active dry yeast rather than plain ol’ dry yeast was to minimize the rising periods and have rolls in the oven in less than half a day? Perhaps I made an error in judgement by not letting the dough rise longer the first time, but I’m not so convinced that’s where the fault lies. Every other same-day cinnamon roll recipe I came across called for a much shorter rising period. Only if someone was using dry yeast did they extend the first rise to 2 hours and the second rise to 1 1/2 hours. I can only ponder this for now, but hopefully more probing research will give me a better sense of what to do next time.

Another iffy thing I may have done was include too large a ratio of liquid to dry ingredients. After stirring the combined ingredients into a roughly shaped ball, I thought the dough felt too dry and far from the annoyingly sticky, silky dough that is usually pictured in cinnamon roll recipes. I added 1-2 more tbsps of buttermilk by kneading it into the dough; I used the folding method and sprinkled the buttermilk on top, squished it in, folded, and repeated, kneading for almost 9 fat minutes. After a few folds I began to notice little tears/bubbles in the dough, but I wasn’t sure what could be done about it and continued to knead. Perhaps I was too tough on it while kneading and messed with the strands of gluten? A google search brought up varied answers to the question how long should I knead my cinnamon roll dough? A few recipes I came across only called for 1-3 minutes of kneading, while a handful called for 6-7 minutes and yet another (the SE included), recommended 9-10. Does the duration of kneading have anything to do with what ingredients one chooses to add or omit? Maybe the richer the dough, the longer the kneading time, hence why mine (vegan and thus lacking eggs and full fat milk) would have faired better with less handling. I’ll have to dedicate more time to unraveling this long-winded topic. Also, how can you tell when your dough has been kneaded enough? That’s a frightfully simple question that I don’t even know the answer to.

In an effort to achieve the ultimate fluffy AND soft cinnamon rolls, I incorporated both the Tang Zhong method (TZ for short) and buttermilk into the dough. For starters, TZ is a water roux (flour & water or milk thickened sauce) used to make extremely light and soft bread. It started in either Japan or China (my research couldn’t narrow it down), and if you scroll through a Japanese bakery in Tokyo you will not have trouble spotting the ever so tender loafs and rolls of milky bread. I found many people online that had successfully made cinnamon rolls with TZ and had pictures to prove it, so I was convinced it would deliver. The roux is 1 part flour and 5 parts milk or water, and it’s generally recommended that you use between 5-10% of your recipes flour, hence why my ingredients call for 1 tbsp bread flour or 5% of the required all purpose flour. More research about TZ also taught me that using bread flour further aids in softening the dough, as it contains more gluten, thus retaining more liquid and making the bread softer. For some reason, I didn’t stop there in my quest for the softest cinnamon rolls, and found myself incorporating buttermilk into the recipe. According to Joy The Baker,

Buttermilk is an important part of baking. The acidic milk combined with baking soda in a recipe is a baker’s dream. It’s helps add a lightness and tenderness to baked treats. When baking soda is combined with the lactic acids of buttermilk, the acid neutralizes the metallic taste of sodium carbonate.

So…. buttermilk is awesome when paired with baking soda, but what about when it’s incorporated into a recipe sans the soda, i.e. cinnamon rolls? This was not a question I asked before adding it to my dough. I had actually used buttermilk a few days prior for a buckwheat banana bread, so when I saw it in the SE cinnamon roll recipe I though, ‘aha, I know how to make vegan buttermilk!’ and the rest happened as it did. I was also more than willing to close my eyes and jump into cinnamon roll making knowing I was adapting from a tried and tested SE recipe. They used buttermilk, which means buttermilk must be a very necessary ingredient, which means I must use buttermilk. Only after going through the motions of making and baking the rolls did the former mistake appear so glaringly obvious. The SE article called for butter, eggs, and buttermilk using cow’s milk, ingredients that are very rich and high in fat. My dough, on other hand, was stripped of all the classic rich ingredients, and replaced the butter with coconut oil, the eggs with… frankly, nothing, and the dairy buttermilk with vegan soy buttermilk. Was the combination of Tang Zhou and buttermilk too much for the dough to handle? Did my negligence of detail lead to these underwhelming cinnamon rolls? Yes, that is the one certain take away. Perhaps all of my meandering in this post has finally dug me a hole deep enough to bury this cinnamon roll recipe in for good.


1 cup all purpose flour & 1 tbsp bread flour
1/2 heaped tsp instant dry yeast
3-4 tbsps vegan buttermilk
3 tbsps soy milk
1 1/2 tbsps coconut oil, melted
1/2 tsp rice malt syrup
Pinch of salt

1/3 cup sweet potato puree
1 heaped tbsp rice malt syrup
1 1/4 tsps cinnamon
Dash of nutmeg

Sauce bath:
2 tbsps dairy free milk
1 1/2 tbsps rice malt syrup
1/2 tbsp coconut oil, melted
1 scant tsp cornstarch
1/2 tsp cinnamon
1/3 cup chopped walnuts

Important note: this recipe was loosely adapted from Serious Eats’ Sunday brunch cinnamon rolls and Minimalist Baker’s easy cinnamon rolls. I also referred to this youtube video when making the Tang Zhou.

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Buckwheat Banana Bread

Makes one small loaf or about 7 inch thick slices 

3/4 cup buckwheat flour
1/4 cup vegan buttermilk*
2 small very ripe bananas, mashed
2 tbsps rice malt syrup (add another tbsp for a sweeter bread, but reduce the milk accordingly)
1/2 tsp vanilla extract
Scant 1/2 tsp baking powder
Pinch of baking soda (about 1/8 tsp)
Dash of salt
1/3 tsp cinnamon (optional)
1/3 cup raisins, chocolate chips, chopped nuts, etc.


Preheat oven to 180 C/356 F
1. Mash bananas and add them to a large bowl with the buttermilk. Stir in the rice malt syrup and vanilla extract until a slightly lumpy mixture forms. In a separate bowl, whisk together the flour, baking powder and soda, salt, and cinnamon if using. Add the dry ingredients to the wet, stirring until well combined and the batter has a fairly gooey/slimy consistency (it won’t be gross for long). Finish by stirring in the dried fruit, chocolate, and/or nuts. Bake for 45-55 minutes, covering the top with foil after about 30 minutes or when the bread has browned enough. Allow to cool and firm up before slicing and serving.

*To make vegan buttermilk simply add 1 1/2 tsps fresh lemon juice to a measuring cup and pour in soy/nut milk until it reaches the 1/4 cup line. Wait for 5-10 minutes as it curdles and thickens up. This hack was discovered here.

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Healthy Vegan Banana Pudding: A Short Story

Sometimes I wish there were shortcuts to my dreamed about successes; perfectly flaky croissants ready in 2 hours, minimal handiwork required; no-rise fluffy cinnamon rolls; pie crust that pleats itself. Life would be pretty neat. My life really would be a lot less messy in the literal sense, with no flakes of dough to uncake from my nail beds and no mountains of dishes to wash because I had to make banana pudding three times rather than nailing it on my first go.

Nonetheless, there is a perverse pleasure in struggling when you know that it’s building you up and bettering you. Long distance runners haven’t found a way to NOT feel like there’s acid running through their veins, yet they continue to run, because, well, because of what lies ahead of them: a finish line, a personal best, a big meal, a better state of mind and body. I run and I also bake. The latter more often than the former, and that’s something that has got to change, but in the mean time, I can at least try to adopt my running state of mind when I’m in the kitchen. In other words, PERSIST despite the frustrations and letdowns, REPEAT in order to improve, and, most importantly, REMAIN LEVEL HEADED because it’s too easy (and stupid) to resort to cynicism and self doubt in a crisis.

I was on a banana pudding rollercoaster the past couple of days, uuuup and up before heading very, very far doooown, and then, because happy endings are nice, back on up again. I had a bunch of prime spotty bananas in the kitchen, but before mashing them for banana bread and calling it a day, I made myself take a little plunge off an unfamiliar cliff and make some banana pudding. I try to make my sweets as close to healthy as possible, so I decided to cut back on the cream, sugar, and eggs, and venture down the sinister road to creamy vegan pudding. Had I known how many times it was going to take to achieve my banana cream dream, I likely would have grabbed the ingredients for banana bread and fled. Long story short, I’m glad I didn’t. I stuck it out and now have a glorious vegan banana pudding to show off (and some not-so-pretty runner up pictures as well).

I began making my first batch of pudding thinking I had it in the bag. Pudding was a baby food in my mind; there isn’t much room for error when you’re asked to mash a banana or warm some milk. While I succeeded at the former two tasks, the pudding I found upon peeking into the fridge the next morning was not the one I was giddy for. It was greyish, the texture was foamy and lumpy, and it looked a lot more like actual baby mash than sophisticated adult pudding. So, what went wrong?

I forgot about my environment. And nature. And the laws of the world. Which, to be fair, is all very heavy stuff to remember when you’re trying not to scald precious pudding milk. Bananas turn grey and brown when unpeeled and sliced up and left to sit for hours!!!! This was only incredibly obvious to me AFTER the fact. I gave myself a little pep talk, I definitely won’t make this mistake the second time around. I am totally capable of manifesting my ideal banana pudding, and went on my jaded way to plan for pudding #2.

Pudding #1:
3/4 cup soy milk
1 small spotty banana (not black all over)
1 1/4 tbsps cornstarch
1 tbsp rice malt syrup
1/2 tsp vanilla extract

It was day two of banana pudding making and I wasn’t any closer to my dreamed about parfait. I could see it, but I couldn’t quite envision how x, y, and z ingredients would mold together once whisked and left to chill. For pudding #2 I used 1/3 the amount of mashed banana as before and I included a little block of silken tofu, thinking it could mimic thickened cream.

Without a blender/food processor in tow, I had to press the tofu through a mesh sieve. The actual labor involved was akin to lifting a pinky, but regardless, the fancy new addition to the recipe didn’t bring me any closer to satisfaction. Banana pudding castle was hidden in the clouds and I was on Earth eating grey mash.

I can only wonder if a blender would have solved the silken tofu problem. Using the mesh left the tofu looking like curdled cream. At the time I had tried to ignore it; everything else was prepared and I wasn’t in the mood to take a step back after not succeeding with pudding #1, so I combined the curdled tofu with the rest of the ingredients and left it to chill in the fridge overnight.

Still grey as ever. In fact, MORE grey than attempt #1!!!! I wasn’t going to add ANY mashed banana to the next pudding and I was definitely going to drop the tofu. Rotten Banana Curdled Milk Pudding. Yum. In all fairness, it didn’t taste all that bad. But cake batter and cake are two very different things. Sure, we like to steal a few licks of batter, but the cake is why we bother baking in the first place. Same goes for banana pudding, it may taste well and good, but if the texture is off the delivery is off and the whole damn thing is OFF. I needed to find a thought through and viable solution to the consistency problem. Simply dumping together ingredients in the hopes that they’ll conjure up creamy pudding was obviously not working.

Pudding #2:
3/4 cup soy milk
1/3 small spotty banana
1 1/4 tbsps cornstarch
1 very small block silken tofu
1 tbsp rice malt syrup
Scant tsp vanilla extract

Aha! Agar agar, you are my sunshine on a grey and underwhelming day. I had been doing some research about baking with gluten free flours and more specifically, what can be substituted for xanthan gum, when I came across the words agar agar and tiny things in my brain clicked and buzzed and gurgled and I suddenly recalled seeing it at the local grocery store. It turns out agar agar is a popular vegan replacement for gelatin. It’s derived from algae and can be bought in three forms: 1. strands (which must be pounded into granules) 2. flakes and 3. powder. The powder is the easiest to deal with as it requires the least amount of stove time and the least amount of teaspoons. The ratio of flakes to powder is about 3:1 and after heaps of internet lurking I learned that about 1 tsp of agar powder is enough to turn 1 cup of milk into firm jello. Colorful ideas for vegan jello and panna cotta and gummy bears had to be put on hold. Now was the time for CREAMY banana pudding.

It worked! Creamy banana pudding was mine. And it was still vegan and low in sugar. The agar powder really saved my butt. Without it I’m not so sure I would’ve found another viable vegan alternative. Creaming tofu was not possible and coconut cream is way out of my food budget here in Tokyo. Maybe I’ll find a way to fit a can of it into one of next month’s grocery lists. I’m definitely going to need a couple of weeks to detox from all of this banana pudding. If it wasn’t for Matt’s helping hand (pictured above) and sizable appetite I wouldn’t have kept the ball rolling on this banana pudding project. It is possible to have a little too much of a good thing. Or rather, why make pudding if you’re not even going to want to eat it?

Pudding #3: The Finale
3/4 cup soy milk
1/3 tsp agar agar powder
1 tsp cornstarch
1 tbsp rice malt syrup
3/4 tsp vanilla extract

Makes a little more pudding than pictured or enough for 2 small serving glasses

3/4 cup soy milk or other dairy free milk
1/3 tsp agar agar powder
1 tsp cornstarch
1 tbsp rice malt syrup or other liquid sweetener (add more for a sweeter pudding and reduce liquid accordingly or slightly increase agar)
3/4 tsp vanilla extract
1 small ripe banana, sliced
4-8 vegan vanilla cookies or store bought vanilla wafers
1/2 cup vanilla whipped cream (coconut/soy if vegan)


1. Pour the soy milk into a non-stick saucepan and sprinkle the agar powder on top. Allow to sit for a few minutes before adding the syrup, turning up the heat to low-medium, and whisking until the ingredients are visibly combined. Add the cornstarch, whisking to avoid clumps. Continue to whisk/stir every handful of seconds to prevent the cornstarch/agar from sticking to the bottom. It will take up to 4-6 minutes for the mixture to visibly thicken, at which point you should continue to stir for about 30 more seconds before turning off the heat.
2. Moving quickly, arrange your cookies/sliced banana/whipped cream* in serving glasses and divide the mixture accordingly. Cover with plastic wrap and allow to set at room temperature for 1 1/2-2 hours before transferring to the fridge for another 1-2 hours to further set and chill. This pudding is best enjoyed cold and with a big dollop of whipped cream on top!

*The whipped cream won’t retain it’s airy form 100% if it’s layered between the warm pudding, but it does add a yummy variation and blends well with the other layers.

baked sweets/ vegan

Vanilla Buckwheat Cookies

This was my first time baking with buckwheat flour so I acted like a child; easily excitable, uninhibited, happy. As soon as I woke up this morning my mind was blaring BUCKWHEAT BUCKWHEAT BUCKWHEAT. I tried my best to be amicable and understanding of Matt’s presence, but it was tough to see the point in making oatmeal for breakfast and then patiently chewing said oatmeal while a bag of pristine buckwheat flour sat a few meters away. I did help make oatmeal and I did enjoy my time with Matt, eating and chatting and eating. Then I proceeded to ignore the dirty dishes and combine a handful of things to create these cookies!! It was a fun start to the day.

This golden cookie is entirely vegan and yummy and not entirely void of healthy things.

I made these cookies because: A) I was in dire need of vanilla cookies for my vegan banana pudding and B) I received a bag of buckwheat flour in the mail a couple of days ago. Score????

Makes 8 small cookies

1/3 cup & 3 tbsps buckwheat flour
1 1/2 tbsps coconut oil, soft/melted
1 tbsp banana puree/applesauce (or sub with more coconut oil)
1 1/2 tsps vanilla extract
2 tbsps rice malt syrup or other liquid sweetener
1/4 tsp baking powder
Pinch of baking soda (about 1/8 tsp)
Pinch of salt


1. Stir together the coconut oil, banana puree/applesauce if using, vanilla extract, and syrup until well combined. In a separate bowl, whisk together the flour, baking powder and soda, and dash of salt. Add the dry ingredients to the wet and stir until a thick, goopy batter forms. The dough will be too sticky to mold into balls, so cover the bowl and set it in the fridge for at least 20-30 minutes.
2. Preheat the oven to 180 C/356 F and line a baking sheet with parchment paper. Working quickly, form balls of cookie dough and lightly flatten the top of each one (very lightly flouring your hands if necessary) Bake for 9-13 minutes (depending on size) or until visibly crisped up and golden. Allow them to cool for a little bit before enjoying!

Important note: this recipe was inspired by Dish by Dish’s Gluten Free Buckwheat Cookies.

baked sweets

Sweet Potato Pumpkin Spice Pie

Makes enough filling for one 6-7 inch pie. Simple add on 1/3 of the ingredients to fit a standard 9 inch pie.

1/2 cup pumpkin puree
1/2 cup sweet potato puree
1/2 medium spotty banana, mashed
3 tbsps maple syrup
1 egg
3 tbsps soy milk
3/4 tsp cinnamon
Scant 1/4 tsp nutmeg
Scant 1/4 tsp ground ginger
Large pinch of salt
Plus: one partially pre-baked pie crust



Attempt #1 at Healthy Vegan Banana Pudding

When a recipe fails and falls flat on it’s cakey face, it’s okay to feel a little bit shitty inside.

Sometimes cookies don’t spread out like they’re supposed to and cakes cave in and the wafer cookies accompanying your highly anticipated banana pudding taste like squishy nothing.

I bought a bunch of bananas on sale the other day; they were covered in spots and perfect for baking, but instead of hopping down the banana bread hole I thought I’d do something different with them. Maybe I’d make banana muffins or cake or… a simple, healthy banana pudding. Ah yes, something uber easy to whip together, please!! It was almost 10 pm, but I was able to dump a few ingredients in a saucepan, whisk, whisk, whisk, and pour them into serving glasses to set in the fridge overnight.

Going into this, I wanted the banana pudding to be as close to the consistency of the usual stuff as possible, while also being entirely plant based and healthier. That didn’t seem like too much to ask at the time, but I was one overly giddy whisk-wielder, so I jumped right in without much second guessing or research.

Much to my dismay, the banana pudding turned out to be a distant cousin of the heavy cream, egg, and sugar laden dessert. It was airy, almost foamy, rather than creamy. Perhaps if I had replaced the soy milk with coconut cream or even tried silken tofu, I would have achieved a thicker consistency. It is vegan after all, lacking the tried and tested ingredients that usually give this pudding weight, so maybe I was in a little over my head?

In an effort to continue keeping things healthier, I made my own banana wafer cookies. This is when science decided to remind me that it plays a big role in baking and because I’m not baking in a vacuum, I ought to pay attention to it’s rules. Uhhh, science.

My cookies turned out cakey and gooey, the antichrist to the crisp and crumbly wafers usually accompanying banana pudding. I’m pretty certain that my obsession with making every dish a little bit healthier got the best of me, because I cut way back on the fats, thinking the mashed banana would save the day and make the cookies moist and chewy. Instead, the banana mash paired up with the all purpose flour and made a gross mess. Cookies are supposed to be layered into the pudding and left to sit for a while, allowing them to slightly soften and marry the flavors in the pudding. Since my cookies weren’t able to do their job, I ended up having to ditch them and enjoy the pudding by itself. Some freshly whipped cream would have been a lovely addition, but in Tokyo it’s not very budget friendly.

There will definitely be a round two of this banana pudding; the lack of vanilla wafer goodness has left vast room for improvement. I’d like to experiment with the new buckwheat and rice flour I received in the mail, so perhaps I’ll find a way to incorporate one or both into a vanilla cookie. Also, the pudding needs some touching up; it was yummy but lacked creamy oompf. I’ll report back when I have an all around tastier banana pudding in my belly!!



Unbelievably Delicious Chocolate Bark

I come bearing good news, the bursting-at-the-seams ridiculously good kind. An hour ago I thought I’d make some homemade chocolate because, well, I had a free Monday afternoon ahead of me and I was craving chocolate. Lawsons, a popular Japanese convenient store, is less than a minute walk from my place, so it was either the homemade route or the costly, likely less healthy, store-bought route. My chocolate tooth is very, very massive, mammoth sized massive, so it’s worth mentioning that I enjoyed this chocolate bark more than I’ve enjoyed 90% of store-bought chocolates I’ve ever tried (I know, I was surprised too). Grocery/convenient stores don’t often have an array of options for lower-sugar chocolate lovers, and when they do, it’s usually hit or miss. This bark, on the other hand, was a one-shot success; it resides in it’s own palace of deliciousness, far, far above the clouds that most chocolate calls home. Maybe rather than making comparisons I ought to simply explain in words (though I’d much rather hand you a piece) why this chocolate bark now has a page in my recipe bible.

It is silky and creamy, despite having no cocoa butter in it. I had been playing coy with myself recently, browsing Amazon Prime for cocoa butter that I know I don’t need in the kitchen; but you do need it…it would open up a world of possibilities for chocolate-making, something you’ve always wanted to have a hand at! Well, the sensibility in me won this buttery battle, and I’m glad it did. While cocoa butter would be a lovely addition to my on-hand ingredients, it is a bit out of my price range and not as necessary as flours or oil. So, no cocoa butter, no problem!! You will, however, need coconut oil or another fairly neutral oil that will harden at cold temperatures.

I didn’t have to douse this bark in sugar. Most ‘dark’ chocolate bars I find at convenient stores are wolves in sheep clothing; ‘Bitter Chocolate’ a bar promised me, when it was in fact only 55% cocoa. That doesn’t mean bitter in my chocolate dictionary; bitter means it is closer to 80% cocoa. Perhaps I’m being finicky, but my point is: if you are like me and prefer chocolate sans the knee-jerking sweetness, AND you are also unwilling/unable to fit pricy, organic, fair-trade, dark chocolate into your budget, you should start making your own bark at home (I’m not hating on fair-trade, it’s obviously more expensive for a reason! Maybe we should be willing to pay the extra few dimes when the quality of someone’s life is in question. I am, however, certain that purchasing fair-trade cocoa powder and making your own bark at home works out far, far cheaper in the long term!! And a chocolate love affair is a long term kinda thing…)

There was no bending over backwards while dicing with one pinky and sifting/stirring/whisking with the other pinky and thumbs. If you are a busy person this chocolate will probably have more of an awe-inducing affect on you than it did me. I’m working at the beat of my own drum at the moment, so I could have spent 3 hours making this bark if I really wanted to, but I didn’t, and I didn’t have to, because it only takes five minutes of handy work. FIVE. Maybe less if you are really swift and nimble.

Despite being on a coffee/heavy caffeine detox, I let myself be a little bad and sprinkle some matcha powder on the bark. Let me just say that cocoa + matcha = one happy healthy high.

Makes one small sheet of bark for 2-3 people

2 1/2 generous tbsps cocoa powder
2 tbsps coconut oil
1/2-1 tbsp maple syrup or other liquid sweetener (add more or less for desired sweetness)
1/4 cup chopped almonds or nut of your choice
1/2 tsp matcha powder


1. Heat up the coconut oil in a saucepan over low heat, removing it from the heat before it really begins to bubble and simmer. Whisk in the cocoa powder and syrup until combined and smooth. Carefully pour the chocolate mixture onto the center of a sheet of parchment paper, spreading it out to achieve desired thickness (I opted for about 1/4 inch). Scatter the nuts on top and sift on the matcha. Let the bark harden up in the fridge for around 30 minutes. Note that it can get messy if left out, especially in a warm climate, so enjoy right away.

mains/ vegan

Pumpkin & Caramelized Onion Galette with a Whole Wheat Crust

I’ve been an avid coffee drinker for years and years. Reading that sentence, it sounds as though I think I’m an expert at life; ‘oh yes, deary, I was drinking coffee decades before you were born’. In reality, I am 22, and while I do have some life experience under my belt, there is still a lot of room to fill up with successes and failures and hopefully not too many embarrassing tales of wetting myself. I believe I started drinking coffee on an almost daily basis when I was a freshman in high school, although, in middle school I would go to Starbucks with friends before and after school some days, so my introduction to caffeine happened way back when; roughly speaking, I’ve been dependent on coffee/caffeine for 5-6 years. Only in the last couple of months have I noticed the frequency with which I think about drinking coffee when I don’t have a cup of it in my hand. I started to think about the tightness in my chest and it’s possible connection to my daily, usually 2-3 times a day, coffee habit. My anxiety had been relatively in check but it still played up everyday in subtle ways; perhaps cutting back on coffee would help tone down my worry and stress?

So, partly because of my dislike for unnecessary (and costly!!!) dependencies, and partly because of my curiosity, I have now reached day 14 without caffeinated coffee. Matt and I decided going the cold turkey route was not for us (a few days of migraine-ridden zombie life? No thanks), so we replaced coffee with matcha. Matcha is sorta like a Japanese variation of green tea; it’s a bit more caffeinated and very different in flavor than your average cup of brewed green tea, as the green tea leaves used for matcha, besides undergoing a unique growing process, are actually ground into a powder which is then whisked directly into water. Am I now matcha dependent? Maybe a little. We’ve cut back from two grams or two cups of matcha a day to one gram and, now, to half a gram. I have to mentally pinch myself sometimes; half a measly gram of matcha!!!? That’s so little caffeine compared to what I was used to! And yet, at this moment in time, it sounds like a trove of treasure.

I’m pretty amazed by how quickly the body can adapt to the circumstances you put/FORCE it in. I’m not really sure what the end goal with this little experiment is… rekindling my coffee dependency is out of the question, but maybe I’ll enjoy it once every couple of months or so when I find myself at a cafe with friends or family, maybe… or maybe I’ll find that it makes me feel sweaty and angsty and awful all over again and I’ll quit for good. I’m not really sure at this point. What I am sure of is that the term ‘addiction’ shouldn’t be reserved for the most extreme of drug addicts. We all have addictive tendencies, whether we are aware of them or not; and that, our possible lack of awareness about our own addictions/dependencies/negative habits/what have you, is what I find most unsettling. I used to drink coffee everyday or else feel bogged down by fatigue, listlessness, and annoyance. There are no doubt other blind spots in my life that I have yet to notice and work on clearing up, but little by little, right?

I had been day-dreaming about making a pie for weeks but upon receiving my baking utensils in the mail, it turned out that the pie tin I ordered online was actually a mini tart tin! If only there was a photo of my face upon unwrapping the tiny, two-inch wide tart tin. Mini tarts were for another day, today I wanted to eat a hearty, savory pie-like thing. I had been browsing a recently discovered food blog, Daisy and the Fox, when I came across a recipe for a galette. Having no idea what a galette was I clicked on the link and was unexpectedly surprised to find the pie-like thing I’d been dreaming of. No pie tin? No problem!! You can simply bake this galette on parchment paper! It’s as tasty as pie, sans the dirty dishes and dainty finger work.

Above^ is a ball of hardened coconut oil. I was in awe of it for a handful of seconds before realizing Tokyo’s notorious summer heat was emanating through the kitchen window directly above it. This may have been my first time making a galette/pie crust from scratch by myself (well, besides the unconventional oat & nut one I made for a vegan pumpkin pie), but I knew that too much diddle daddling + cascades of hot air + warm, palmy hands = melted, mess of a crust, so I stopped oggling the coconut ball and started cutting it up into the flour.


Makes one small galette, roughly 6 inches in diameter 

1/2 cup chopped pumpkin, tightly packed
1-2 tbsps plain yogurt (soy/coconut if dairy free)
1 medium onion
1 tsp neutral oil
Scant 1/4 tsp table salt
Ground black pepper to taste
Dash of cinnamon (optional)

3/4 cup whole wheat flour
Scant 1/4 cup coconut oil, hardened/scoopable
1-3 tbsps ice cold water
1 egg yolk for wash (optional, gives the crust a shinier appearance)


For the crust:
1. Add flour to a large bowl. If your coconut oil is scoopable, toss it into the flour and begin cutting it up (I use a fork) into the flour. If your oil is solid and straight from the fridge like mine was, transfer it to a cutting board and chop it up into chunks with a knife, then add it to the flour. The resulting mixture should resemble grainy sand. Cover the mixture and set it in the fridge for at least 20 minutes.
2. Once the flour-oil combo has chilled, stir in a tbsp of icy cold water. Add up to 3 tbsps if needed, but don’t over add. Using your hands, quickly shape the mixture into a ball, it should just barely hold together. Transfer it to a sheet of lightly flour-dusted parchment paper and begin rolling it out, sprinkling flour on the surface if the rollin pin is sticking. Roll, rotate the paper, roll, rotate the paper, to achieve a relatively circular shape. If you are going to add your filling and bake the galette right away, begin doing so, but if not, wrap it in plastic wrap and set it in the fridge until baking time. It can also be stored in the freezer, to be defrosted an hour or so before use. Also, if the dough is clearly oozing oil and too wet to handle, set it in the fridge to chill before continuing to roll!

For the filling: 
1. Begin by caramelizing the onion; slice a medium onion and add it to a saucepan with 1 tsp oil. Cook on low-medium heat for at least 30 minutes to an hour, stirring every 5-10 minutes, until gooey and sweet in flavor. Stir in a tbsp of water if the onions begin to stick and burn. Set aside for later.
2. Preheat oven to 180 C/356 F. Chop and boil pumpkin. Once cooked, mash/puree it until smooth. Add 1-2 tbsps of yogurt to achieve a creamier texture. Stir in the salt, pepper, and cinnamon if using.
3. Spread the pumpkin filling in the center of the sheet of dough, leaving at least 1 inch of untouched dough around the border. Top with the onions and gently fold the crust over the filling, pleating it as you go along to evenly fit the crust. Lightly brush the crust with egg yolk and bake for 35-45 minutes (mine baked for 42 minutes) or until the crust is golden. Enjoy fresh out of the oven or cold from the fridge- it works quite like a quiche!

Important note: this post was inspired by Daisy and the Fox’s Apple & Blueberry Galette and the crust is based off of YayYay’s Kitchen’s Flaky Whole Wheat Crust!